Well hello there!
I found a very interesting article on how to choose a creative medium. If you want to make art / express yourself / be creative, but are overwhelmed by the choices out there and possibilities (sculpting, film, painting, poetry, music, performance art, dance, animation, Etc) this post may help.
Good movie shout it: the following are three movies that are really great in my opinion. They all have powerful and empowering messages. Some of them (Speak and The Diary of a Teenage Girl) delve into pretty dark matter. Bread and Butter is lighter. All of them have good endings and are great movies.
Speak is a book by Laurie Halse Anderson. I read it in college (not for class) and loved it immensely. This is the movie trailer for the movie. Yes, that is a young Kristen Stewart.
Diary of a Teenage Girl
Bread and Butter is written and directed by Liz Manashil. I have had the pleasure of speaking with her before, and she’s an amazing and inspiring person herself. 🙂
Today I went to see my friend R. He said the concept behind moving on from hurt, is staying busy. Go do things, social things, go to all the things! I also want to explain a little about my break up. I didn’t write here beforehand, that it wasn’t making me happy. I just said it was going great. But the truth was there were things that made me unhappy and I felt like we weren’t compatible and that it was not the right timing for me. I actually wanted to be single too! I missed it. I decided to break up with him. At first, I thought it was an impulsive decision. But after talking to my therapist, I now see that I was thinking about it for a while, just not saying things to people. I don’t regret my decision to break up with him. But I do regret messaging him 2 days later. It was impulsive, and I told him I missed him. He was very nasty to me in his response, which, while making me realize how immature he is (I was not nasty to him when I broke up with him), also hurt a lot. It was a long and unsolicited message on who he thinks I am as a partner, and basically closed the door on any communication or future for a relationship of any kind. It really did hurt. I’m not sure why, but my whole life, I’ve been sensitive to mean comments. Like I really take them to heart. But I have a lot of support in my life. There are people who care about me, want the best for me, and I care about them too!! My mom and my friend K come to mind. So I know that I have been triggered.
Anyway, while R says that the key to moving on is keeping busy (and I agree!), I will balance processing my feelings about what happened and also giving myself time to focus on other things! I have a tendency to lament and mope when I’m alone (it just comes naturally, haha), and I think too much of this is unhealthy.
If anybody has any ideas on how to move on from hurt, feel free to post a comment. If you’re going through a difficult time, know you have my ❤
Today, I got a haircut. I already have short hair, but it was getting super shaggy in the back. It was a good price too (10$ at Supercuts), and my hairdresser was sweet and pleasant. 🙂
I had therapy yesterday…yay! I love therapy and my therapist. 🙂
I am wanting to express myself in a major way. I’m not exactly sure how or in what fashion. I suppose I will try out a bunch of creative ways.
There are people in my life who care about me. 🙂 My mom, my friend Kath, and you know what? I think just maybe, people miss me when I’m not there at places like meditation group. I’m proud of myself and what I’m doing.
I have found a bunch of cool videos from around the internet. I’d like to share some here. Maybe you’ll think they’re cute / funny / informative / helpful like I did too:
All By my Selfie, a short film by Tiny Buddha (Lori Deschene and other people).
Why are people so nasty?
A brief (and very cute) history of goth 🙂
Interesting thoughts on loneliness ❤